I want to talk about something that seems to be really impacting my ability to reach out to God at the moment.

I’ve begun to feel incredibly guilty if I:

1. Don’t seek and trust my Heavenly Father enough in prayer and include him in my dreams/ goals/ life like I would any other important member of my family, (like my partner.)

2. Seek and ask him too much!

I recently watched a video by Steve Harvey in which he gave his audience 2 scriptures. The first was:

James 4:2 “You have not, because you ask not.”

And the second was:

Habakkuk 2:2 “And the Lord answered me: write the vision and make it plain on tablets, so he may run who reads it.”

Steve then went on to explain the importance of a vision board and told everyone that wants to be successful in life to write down 300 things they wish to ask the Lord give to them. He advised asking the Lord with intention and waiting one year with a guarantee that God will have ticked off at least 10% within this time.

I listened and thought it sounded interesting so I gave it a go.

I’ve managed to write 66 things so far but the guilt is really starting to creep into me. I don’t know if it’s from God or the enemy but I feel incredibly guilty and cheek to ask so much.

Right now I feel so conflicted.

On one hand I remember that God created the universe and is in total control of all things, he is infinite! So 66 ‘wishes/ dreams’ for my life definitely pales in comparison. I remember that he is my father and loves me and wants to be at the centre of my life. I remember Jesus said in Matthew 7:7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”

AND

In John 16:24, “Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.”

AND

In John 14:14, “You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.”

And yet I feel deeply guilty that as well as asking for forgiveness for the many, many things I do wrong each day, AND asking for protection over me and my family AND asking for peace and healing AND for an undeserved eternal place in heaven I’m now asking for 66 needs/ wants/ dreams/ goals to be fulfilled.

I feel truly guilty for asking. Like it’s not enough that I will spend eternity with him thanks to his son Jesus, his perfect Love and Grace that forgive me each day. It’s not enough I already dont deserve this and I have the nerve to then ask for so much more.

I would really encourage others Christians thoughts on this subject as I am torn and unsure.

Thank you, God bless x

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