When I first became a Christian I have to admit I didn’t really know what to expect.
I became a Christian after attending an alpha course at my friend, Mo’s house and realising without a shadow of doubt that God was real and that Jesus gave his life on the cross because he loves me.
This was a hard truth for me to accept at first. Especially because I found it near impossible to believe anyone could love me that much when so many terrible things happen in life. I remember telling Mo, “I find it easier to believe in the devil than I do to believe in God.”
Becoming a Christian was not something I chose lightly and was certainly not a flippant decision. I listened for weeks to different speakers who recanted stories, testimonies and scripture which left me unable to deny that there is a God.
What I found is that the more room I gave God in my life, the more room he took and filled with his presence. He began to make himself known in such a way that even in my darkest moments I could not deny him. I feel his presence in my life so significantly, and have seen with my own eyes the amazing miracles and blessings he has bestowed upon me and my family.
My back story.
To testify to the endless love and faithfulness of Christ let me explain how I came to find myself on Mo’s alpha course. You see, at this point in my life I felt completely and utterly lost. I had just had a bit of a mental breakdown from a builder who destroyed our home, along with our trust and our finances.
Quite quickly I became mentally unwell, which then manifested itself physically in my body when I began to experience, for the first time in my life the intense fear and anxiety of panic attacks. I was suddenly unable to leave the house, go to work, or even get out of bed some days as anxiety and depression began to consume more and more of me. This is the point I quit my job in the NHS, where I had worked for the past 6 years.
For the first time in my life I had the time I needed to look after myself, rest, and in time; heal. Although it was a dark and challenging time for me and my family, God, in all his wisdom and faithfulness was able to turn it into a really positive and blessed time.
With all my new found free time, and the feeling I really need my friends and family around me I was able to attend the Alpha course at Mo’s house.
This is single handedly what lead to me becoming a Christian.
During the months after I quite my Job and found God, he was so incredibly generous and giving to us. I can say hand on heart; we never suffered during this time of financial insecurity.
Without fail, every month money came to our door. We received tax rebates, refunds on over payments for water bills, extra bank shifts and paid work for hobbies (which has now materialised into my partners dream job!) We honestly never went without during the 4 months I was unemployed.
To add to this testimony I want to explain the miracles God sent to us during this time when we were left with the shock and mess of our home from the builder.
First I’ll explain what we paid the builder to do; demolish an existing lean to conservatory, build an extension in its place and knock through the old kitchen wall, install an RSJ and make one big kitchen diner.
This is not what we got.
Our back door had been removed when the lean to was demolished so we had been left ‘temporarily’ with an internal door while our extension should have been being built. This door had a huge gap under it which let the cold and the rain in, had no lock, would swell when it rained so we couldn’t open it, had a broken window pain which was boarded with wood and was totally unfit and unsafe. When demolishing the lean to the builder damaged the bricks on the outside of our house by pulling them out, he left live electrical wires on our dining room floor, telling us they were safe as they weren’t live. He tore out our kitchen for no reason on the first day so he could store his tools in which led us to have no kitchen for 7 months. Our back garden was used as a dumping ground where the builder left all the rubbish and soil from demolishing and digging out foundations. And to top it off we already had no central heating which was now made worse by the huge drafts and damp getting in and a leak in our roof suddenly appeared.
As you can imagine it was overwhelming and extremely stressful for us, especially having a 3 year old in the house at the time too. However, one by one people began to come to the house and fix things.
People we didn’t even know and would never have asked to help us.
The outside bricks were fixed by a retired builder, a friend of a friend’s husband brought us a new double glazed back door as he owned a building company, new Christian friends repaired our roof, a Christian charity cleared our back garden and our church fundraised to pay for some artificial grass to be laid in the garden so our son could go outside again!
And to be absolutely clear, neither myself, nor my partner asked a single person for anything and yet people kept turning up at our door to help.
God used so many people to help us, especially our pastors wife who put it all into motion after popping over one day to see me and leaving so shocked she went home and cried. From then on God worked such miracles in our life and during a time when we had the least money we were honestly the richest we have ever been.
Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?